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Thursday, April 14th, 2005
3:25 am	Dear Tanzplag... You are a boring old sot, and a bit ofa ponce to boot. I find myself dreading those few occasions when I have to dust off your personality and wear it long enough to post here in this journal. So, I'm not going to do it any more. <3, vovinoiad.
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
4:11 pm	Nothing to see here. Move along, people. Being either a bad person or a good person is hard. You actually have to go out of your way to do things one way or the other. Being good means you have to take care of those less fortunate, be honest, don't lie, cheat, or steal, don't hurt people unless it's absolutely neccesary and even then you kind of have to feel bad about it and try to make amends, oh, yeah, and then there's "making amends", which is when you realise that you did something wrong, only instead of just saying, "Well, I'm sorry, so it's okay now." you actually have to DO something to make up for whatever crappy thing you did, and you have to basically actually go out of your way to be a benefit and a positive effect on the world around you... ...And then there's being a bad person. You have to CONSTANTLY keep your eye out for the main chance, and you have to look out for number one, even if it means screwing over your friend/partner/kid's future, you have to go out of your way to knock other people down and make sure that you got yours,which usually means screwing other people over toget it (again), and you also have to constantly make sure no one around you is strong enough to do unto you as you have probably already done unto them, which means yet MORE making sure you knock down everyone around you... ...in other words, both moral conditions require a lot of WORK. One thing I've noticed about most people I know is, they aren't really particularly "good" or "bad". I know one or two that I can say are "good", and one or two that are "bad", but for the most part, nearly everyone I know just sort of shows up on a daily basis. They don't do anything "good" or "bad" that really stands out. They're pretty much morally neutral, with a default setting of "Look after myself, but try not to screw anyone over too badly.", which isn't particularly good or bad in it itself. I have no idea why I'm writing this. It just popped into my head. Current Mood: complacent (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
1:59 pm	Just a note to about eight or nine people. 1. I have been a Frank Miller fan since roughly the early 90's. 2. I've been waiting nearly a year for SIN CITY to be made, ever since I came across the first rumors. 3. I appreciate your attempts to "keep me in the loop" very much, and look forward to seeing it, with you, if possible, but if not, then, at some point in the future, and certianly getting all fanboy over it. That being said, I have a request to the small group of people who have now sent me the thirteen text messages on my phone over the past three days. I KNOW SIN CITY STARTS FRIDAY. YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME ANY MORE. Thank you for your help. <3 Current Mood: amused (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
11:33 pm	Picnic This Coming Sunday! Sunday, April 3rd, me and handful of friends are getting together in Riverside Park (The one with the ducks, by Five Points) and having a picnic. I'd like to invite all of you guys, too. I have two requests, though. Bring food/drink/something, AND bring a single canned good of some sort that we can donate to the local homeless shelter. There's no specific reason for this, other than it's just a nice thing to do. That's Sunday, April 3rd, at 2 o'clock. (two hours before tea-time!) We'll morethan likely be across the street from the church, behind the playground equipment. The SCA usually practices and puts on a pretty interesting show at the other end of the park, so, if you get bored, you can always go check them out. Hope to see at least some of you there! (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
11:18 pm	Goodbye, Kimmy. Tonight, at roughly 10:38 p.m. Eastern standard time, about forty minutes ago, my companion and dear friend for the past eleven years passed away. I found her on the side of the road in the rain at night, and she left me on this rainy night. She was the only woman who ever stayed with me, the only friend who always knew I'd come back for her, the only being I truly and completely loved with all of my heart. She died of complications arising from liver failure due possibly to either an unknown toxin or feline leukemia. I've lost my father, both sets of grandparents, a good half-dozen close friends, and been to more than forty funerals. Tonight, I lost my best friend. I love you, Kimmy. Bu don't wait for me. Go wherever you can now, anywhere in the Universe. I'll find you when it's my time. I promise. Current Mood: desolate (20 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 14th, 2005
3:09 am	Word for the Day. Main Entry: hy·poc·ri·sy Pronunciation: hi-'pä-kr&-sE also hI- Function: noun Inflected Form(s): plural -sies Etymology: Middle English ypocrisie, from Old French, from Late Latin hypocrisis, from Greek hypokrisis act of playing a part on the stage, hypocrisy, from hypokrinesthai to answer, act on the stage, from hypo- + krinein to decide -- more at CERTAIN 1 : a feigning to be what one is not or to believe what one does not; especially : the false assumption of an appearance of virtue or religion 2 : an act or instance of hypocrisy If I had single thing that i regarded as a sin, this would be it. Hypocrisy. If I don't like someone...I make it pretty fucking clear. I can be blunt to the point of rudeness, I can be polite-but-distant...but I'm pretty damned good about letting people know when I don't like them. One thing I cannot do is sit comfortably across a table and share a meal with someone that I have derided, insulted, and spat upon in my heart. I honestly don't know how people can do that. It both amazes and disgusts me. I also don't know how a person can deride, insult,and spit on one person for doing something...and then turn around and break bread with someone who has done the exact same thing and smile while doing it. Then again...I am a plain, simple person. I don't know a lot of things about people. Then again...some things about people I don't want to understand. Current Mood: nauseated (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 28th, 2005
2:32 pm	Just a notice... I've been playing around on MySpace a little bit, and having fun there. Also, I've been doing most of my LJ'ing via assorted filters on vovinoiad. I may let this one fall by the wayside, as, frankly, it's just gotten really boring. I'll still keep it up for records-keeping purposes and keeping track of friends, but, I probably won't be updating it very often. If anyone wants to keep track of my "personal life" (which is what this journal was originally set up to do...), they can just call me. Hehehehe. Ugh...Alas, poor Tanzplag. First a symbolic suicide a few years ago...and now a slow descent into old age and being forgotten. Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
2:12 am	Late Night Entry. Slipped on ladder while carrying 80-odd pound bag over shoulder at work. Possibly sprained my ankle, but, c'est la vie. You work a real job, you risk a real injury. (Ow! I think I scraped my thumb over the mouse too hard!) In other news, picking up new car Monday. In other other news, Pirates = Out, Ninjas = In. Shaolin Masters Vs. Goths = VICTORY FOR SHAOLIN! REVENGE OF THE FIVE ONI MASTERS! No. I will not explain. Those who need to know, will know. They will be NUMBER ONE. All others will be NUMBER TWO, OR LOWER. Current Mood: amused...but ouchie (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 20th, 2005
11:52 pm	Mmmn. Picnic. God, I love Florida. Where else can I have a picnic in the park on a winter afternoon, and actually enjoy getting doused by sprinklers? confuzed,sacred_engine,shybunni,graymaus,anabelsdreaming,reinhabitual,backseatxwhore,Alaina,Bryan, Jess, Andi, John, and myself all met out at the park and had a surprisingly full spread. We took a plate or three over to Fuel for batsinmybrew 's lunch, and took a handful of pictures of everyone. (Uncle Brookles should have them posted fairly soon.) Then we came home, wherein we proceeded to converse about pyramids, play heroclix, and read slash-fiction for several hours. All in all...a good week-end. ~tanzplag~ LJ friendsCollage. Brought to you by pratibha75 and teemus. Current Mood: cheerful (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 18th, 2005
4:21 pm	Bring out your Dead! Bring out your Dead! It seems lik everyone is either (a) sick, or (b) getting over being sick, or (c) about to be sick, or (d) all of the above. Nergal's apparently restless, and firing off his bow at us again. (Sumerian Deity, famous for causing plagues. ) I, myself am somewhat ill, but seem to be on the mend more or less, so, no worries. If you, yourself, are feeling poorly, I hope you get better soon. Chuff. ia, ia, yog-sothtoth. Current Mood: sick (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
9:05 pm	And now, a moment of poetry. Unfortunate Coincidence, By Dorothy Parker. By the time you swear you're his, Shivering and sighing, And he vows his passion is Infinite, undying - Lady make a note of this: One of you is lying. ...now, who says Hyenas don't have a well-developed sense of humor? Current Mood: amused (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
2:39 pm	Pardon me for a moment while I get sappy. I just wanted to say Happy Valentine's Day to everyone. Yes, yes, I know. It's an entirely made-up holiday coldly calculated by corporations to clear candy and cards. (How's that for alliteration?). But who cares? To my friends who are currently in relationships...I say "Congratulations!", and I hope that you both (or all three, or however many are involved...) find this year and many others to be filled with hearts and flowers and candy and all sorts of good things. To my single friends who lament that condition...I say, "Chin up!" You'll never find your own shining star if you keep looking down at the ground. Keep your heart, and keep your faith, and you will be rewarded. As for me? Well, what can I say. I'm in love. I'm in love with you. And you, and you, and you, too. (And yes. Even YOU, as well. But you knew that, already, didn't you?) So many things have happened for me overthe past few months. I have lost so many scales over my eyes, and put down so many useless burdens. I have learned to see and enjoy simple things again, and as cliched and hackneyed as it may sound...I'm in love with all of Life. Whether we have been enemies or whether we have been friends, whether we have fought or made love, today, I wish you all joy and delight. On the morrow, of course, all may change, as always. But today...NOW... I LOVE YOU ALL. Current Mood: cheerful (24 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 7th, 2005
12:50 pm	By the bulging belly of Zothaqqua! Sorry to everyone that's been trying to call me! My cellphone went Down In The Ground Where The Dead Men Go, and I decided to just switch from Sprint to Cingular. That's going to take a few days, though, so, I'll post that number when it's available. Oh, and we got a new home phone-number, as well. It's ***-****. (What, you didn't think I'd make it THAT easy, did you?) Addendum: Dear Bog, life is good. Just replaced old,spanky-ass dead phone with cameratastic new uberphone. Kept the same number, though, so, feel free to call at will. :-D Praise Tsathoggua! Current Mood: amused (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
1:30 pm	Slightly more detailed update. Heh. First off... Check out the dork. My god...was I ever so thin and had so much hair as that? I don't even remember what year that was, although judging by the hair-style, I'm thinking it was sometime in the late 80's. Ah,well. Whoever that kid was, he ain't here now. Heh. (Although it is nice to show proof that I wasn't ALWAYS the old jaded lump I am now. Great cynics aren't born, they're forged.) *ahem* on with the update. Currently still at UPS, the work is hard, the pay is meager, but it's good honest work and it keeps my bills paid. Life in Casa Holly und Josh is actually working out nicely for the most part, Kimmy is as fat and happy as her owner, and everything else is pretty much hunky dory. In long-term planning news, I'm going to make an actual serious effort at making Burning Man this year, I'll probably be going with Lisa and Winston if they decide to go, but if anyone else is interested, let me know. I figure with five or six months to prepare instead of just one or two, I should be able to pull it off. Hehehehe. I'm thinking about picking up another day-time/part-time gig so I can have some spare money. I want to find something close to the house and reasonably easy-going, nothing long-term, really. UPS is the place I'm trying to make my permanent career home at. I fiugre there's no WAY they can send this job over to India. Current Mood: accomplished (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
5:19 pm	Another short update. Things still going well. Still don't have connection at the house, but we should have the dsl and the on-demand within the next two weeks. Life in the 2005 is good. I think I'm going to try and make the Burn again this year, and with seven months planning instead of two, it's conceivably possible. Muahahahah Current Mood: amused (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
4:37 pm	Quick update from the library Hollymonster found an unexpected windfall for us on the sidewalk and I found an old and very dear friend I had thought long lost. Life is strange. But good. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
3:03 pm	Just a quick update. Moved into the new place, power, furniture, now working on phone and dsl. Things are going most excellent. Glad to see the ass-end of 2004, which may rank as Shittiest Year Ever. Looking forward to seeing 2005. Optimus Prime dies this year. (Edit: I think that between my three journals, I have Id, Ego, and Super-ego pretty much covered.. Wierd.) Current Mood: amused (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
2:21 pm	Rest in Peace, Mrs. Mason. My best friend Jeremy's mother passed away this Tuesday. I didn't know her very well. When she heard my nickname was "Satan Josh", she called me "Saint Josh", instead. And she gave me cookies. I hope that in whatever Heaven she is currently occupying, she knows just how much those two small gestures on her part mean to me. Current Mood: melancholy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
1:43 pm	Ph33r my l33t BRAINWASHING POWERS. Just making a quick update. Wizard's First Rule: People Are Stupid. Given the proper motivation, people will believe anything because they either fear it is true, or because they want to believe it is true. People's heads are filled with knowledge, facts, and beliefs, and most of it is not true, but they think it is true. People can rarely tell the difference between the truth and a lie, yet they think they can, so they are fooled more easily. People want to believe, so they do. --TERRY GOODKIND, "Wizard's First Rule", "The Sword of Truth" series. It's a shitty fantasy series, I freely admit. But you have to admit, that "First Rule" is a doozy. I don't have any "powers". I'm not very good at talking to people in person. I have a small gift when it comes to writing. A VERY small one. I certainly can't brainwash people. Nor can I influence, persuade, or otherwise convince anyone to do anything they REALLY don't want to do. More importantly than the blatant facts stated above..I don't believe I have access to any such nonsense. Nor, indeed, would I want it. If someone does something with me, I don't want it to be because of some forced manipulation, or trick, or what-have-you. I want to enjoy their company, and hope they enjoy mine...which cannot be done if I am using trickery or guilt to get what I want. If any of you reading this, whether you like me or dislike me, think that that is the way I operate... It is far more a commentary on the way YOU operate than on my own methods. I am honest to a fault when it comes to my flaws. People know that when they meet me, they are getting exactly what is advertised, no less, no more. No trickery, no deception, no using guilt-trips or other emotional manipulations. I am who I am,warts and all, no shame in my game. If someone chooses my company over yours...it is not through any plot or scheme of my own, but via their own choice. Their own, personal choice. To say otherwise, insults not just me, but them, and yourself. You're essentially saying they're too weak-minded to make their own choices, and can be "controlled" by a short, fat, bald man with crooked teeth...and you're ALSO saying that this short, fat bald man with crooked teeth is somehow BETTER than you are when it comes to getting what he wants. If it makes you feel better to think I used EBIL DARK VOODOO POWERZ(tm) to HYP-MO-TIZE(tm) them, that I have MYSTERIOUSLY CLOUDED THEIR MINDS(tm)and POIZONNED DEM AGAINS' YOO(tm)... ...well, go on. You keep thinking that. Feel free. Because that's probably a LOT easier for you to handle than the actual truth of the matter, which is probably something along the lines of "Hey...maybe they quit hanging out with me because I'M SUCH A HUGE GAPING ASSHOLE." Current Mood: confused Current Music: DIS IS NOT A LUV SONG! --Rammstein (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
10:59 am	Week-day Update. Got basic furniture moved into new place. Got water and power turned on. Generally set up and ready to go. *pant pant* Out of breath. I feel like I'm doing a million things at once...still working on the magazine, trying to find enough contributors to make a "sample issue" that I can use to get print-pricing and etc., also trying to get my new table-top game up and running, and generally getting back into REAL social life on top of all that. I've been having this urge to actually hang out with people, exchange ideas, COMMUNICATE, hold intelligent conversations that DON'T revolve around the latest who's-fucking-who-behind-who's-back "scandal" gossip-mill, that sort of thing. Fortunately, I've purged most of the people obssessed with that sort of boring crap from my life, now I have to build on my small network of actually interesting friends. Oh...emergency notice: CHRISTI...if you read this, PLEASE call me! I don't have your number, and I need to make arrangements to pick up Kimmy.I'm working all through this week in the evenings, but I can come by either Saturday or Sunday. If you're off during the week, I *might* be able to make arrangements if it's before 3 in the afternoon. (If anyone reads this, and you see Christi anywhere, PLEASE tell her to call me so I know when to come by.) Edit: Also, I'm going to be offline for a little while unil I can get a new phoneline and a new computer set-up. If I don't answer your emails or comments, I still love you! Seriously, though, if it's an emergency, just call my cell, if you know the number. If you don't, well, hmn. I'd probably better post it in a locked entry just in case.If it's NOT an emergency, I work in the afternoon/evenings, but feel free to call any time, just leave a message if I don't answer. I can't wait to start showing the new place off. ^_^ ) Current Mood: Wired (4 Comments |Comment on this)